Still Struggling to Normalize

Yesterday, Sabine went in for her second chemo infusion this week (carfilzomib) and with platelets and some other blood chemistry tests being low, she had to receive 2 units of whole blood. After the chemo infusion, we left the clinic at around 7:30 p.m. Whew!

But a stop at our favorite local Chinese restaurant (Imperial Gardens) perked her up. Juggling 5 hemodialysis sessions a week with two runs to the clinic at UW Hospital for IV infusions sort of fills the week up along with the normal fall chores of getting ready for winter on the farm, and her mother's failing memory -- it's challenge.

Although she is pretty tired (8.0 hemoglobin), she continues to have a positive attitude with daily exercise and coveted naps in the afternoon.

We still have our boat in the water (we try to be the last one out in early November)

and we are looking forward to enjoying some overnights on the Mississippi.

In January, we begin our 9th year managing this thing called "cancer."

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A Poem on a Walk

for 8 years now

we've pursued

normal

while blood-washing

and

chemicals become

your/our life

mutations and permutations have

been partners

in our life

together 

but they do not

dominate

yet

as we continue

our morning walks 

(after coffee,

of course)

up the hill 

i see a

some kind of 

shadow

hovering

an illusion?

private and primitive 

it hangs around

wispy

fog-like

shoo

my arm passes

through

go somewhere

else

get out of

here

us

find another

another what?

another victim?

yes, i say

anything

anyone

but

us.