Friday, March 4, 2011

Visiting Hospice

First of all, the medical report: good.  Sabine is more tired but tolerating the increase chemo dosage. We check the "numbers" again in a couple of weeks and see how the cancer is responding.  Otherwise, we both anxiously await the tide of spring!

Now for more:

A dear friend from one of our support groups checked into the hospice center last week.  They called us to tell us about the progress of the cancer and what had happened.  You know, it's so easy and comfortable to live in your head.  Oh, the hospice center that I had heard so much about but never had anyone I knew in it.  A good time to visit, to see her and her husband and to check the place out... all rational "head stuff." 

But once there, that old question from clinical pastoral training came into my mind as Sabine and I opened the front door. "What's this like? What's the feelings?

Sabine and I had errands to do so we arrived and left in two separate cars.  I sat for some time in my car pondering these questions and writing the following poem...

a call to visit
a friend in hospice on
a wintery day
that's what i do
(or so i thought)
and then
a gnawing
appears and takes
"i must leave" you
and i
feeling stupid
to ever think this
was less
it was
and what i thought
would be
just another
medical visit
becomes to each of
that day
the day in which
we, too,
will open these
large wooden
enter together
but only
one of

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